the first love;

Winter Love

2009-03-12T04:33:00.000-07:00

As shining winter fairies come floating down
I kissed your smiling picture because I had nothing else to do
At that long line outside of the movies, we vowed
To never stand in line here together again
But since my heart is next to yours
I still miss you even as a friend
But I can't turn back ever again

I love you, I want to see you again
With a kiss, expressed alongside ten billion snowflakes
Until the day that we happen to cross paths someplace
Baby, even if you forget me
Is it okay for me to still love you?
I'll never forget you

Since the moment that I was alone,
I've realised what true loneliness is
These overwhelming feelings in my heart that won't stop flowing out
Now, the way to love a person
Is so important that I think a person shouldn't forget it
No matter how many times my address changes
I'll never let go of that voice or that dream

Even if you love someone else as time flows by
I'll still remember you
Our destined meeting and the warmth we shared
I'm glad that it was you, and I can say it from my heart
Until we meet someday again

We can't stop the future from coming
The feeling of sadness can quickly become forever
Even if I get wounded when I'm happy
When I've fallen in love with a someone
Just alive

I love you, I want to see you again
With a kiss, expressed alongside ten billion snowflakes
Until the day that we happen to cross paths someplace
Baby, even if you forget me
Is it okay for me to still love you?
I'll never forget you

- BoA; winter love

this song vaguely reminds me of my currents emotions, it's far by one of the closest to the sound of my heart, i wonder how many people are gonna see this post, for i've not been planning to blog. but well, things are always not expected.

i am glad it was you too(:

sweet and not so sweet 17th.

2008-10-26T22:05:00.000-07:00

BOOYOO. IM BACCCK.

not really thou, cause I JUST WANNA SAY THANKYOUU LOVEESS.

LMAO.

thanks lahhor, anyw, each msg recieved brought a smile to my face(:
i wanna thank God for letting me meet all my loving friends. heeheeh.
tons of things happened lately, having the big Os and all.
all i can say is, i really need the time:D

ja-ne peeps!

2008-09-08T09:12:00.000-07:00

YAA-BAII~
AHH.
okay, whatever
whoooo
imma thinking i get a split personality alreaddy.

D:

hands itchy, and slacking maybeah more of procrastinating.
i know my font BIGG arh.
so blind people like YOU and ME can see. aha.
lmao.

i am tired, wanna sleep then find it waste of time.
do people contradict themself?

i do.

2008-07-22T09:17:00.000-07:00

sadly, no more tears flowed.
too dissapointed.
closing my heart, so i wont cause myself misery.

2008-07-07T09:27:00.000-07:00

おかえり- 絢香 (okaeri- ayaka)

sakurairo mau koro- mika nakashima

雪の華- mika nakashima

2008-07-07T00:58:00.000-07:00

here you go.
a no lifer blogging just for herself to see.
tagggg, people tagggg.
*fuuuuuuu*

ahh. damn.
im bored, hahh, doing f&n, stoning. etc.
i wanna get out of my stupid house, but i am lazy to call my peeps.
fineee.
im gonna rot on my chair and start to emo until i turn black.
HAAHAA.

oh. and ah.
i hate the rain. it gives you this emo-ing feeling, of emptiness, nothing is important feeling.
and its called nonstalgic as told.
cause theres tons to worry about and i am feeling like all dried up with emotions.
eee. very weird stuff.

one word in conclusion.
siannnn.

2008-07-02T04:53:00.000-07:00

see! im gonna have beautiful big eyes soon:D heh. er. minus the big part. haha. ayu suddenly look super chio. maybe cus of her super big eyes and her blonde-light brownish hair. EE. I WANNT IT TO LAAH.

*agony*

2008-06-25T06:46:00.000-07:00

i am not happy.
i want to scold bad words.
i want people who talks to much and starts to irritate my already very unhappy mood to go eat shit.
i want to screw poa.
i want to screw f&n.
i want to screw myself for not revising anything/much today.

i want to screw the stupid f&n pratical tomorrow, which i think is the thing that makes me unhappy right now.

2008-06-22T06:56:00.000-07:00

ARGHHHHHHH.
WHY IN THE WORLD IS MY FACE SO FRIGG'IN BIG?

lmao. randomness.

2008-06-19T02:08:00.000-07:00

[ A long time ago, there was this little girl who was born a premature. Barely 7months & she came into Earth.

Time passed by in the blink of an eye, and this little girl grew up healthy and strong.
But, she didn't really like making friends, because she was afraid that her friends would mind how she looked.
when she was small, the tube that helped her to breathe was adjusted too high by the nurses, and it resulted in one of her nostrils having a sharper edge than the other, and that it formed some sort of a bump on her nose,

The girl knew people were curious about her nose, and they would ask.
She didn't like it.
It made her feel inferior.
They would ask many questions, and sometimes, these questions that they ask would hurt her, but they didn't know.
She felt like an animal trapped in a cage, unable to get out of the enclosure, and it was just like that questions that people asked. She couldn't get away.

She loathed the questions,but there was nothing she could do.
She felt grateful to the friends she had, that they did not ask about her nose.
Time was healing the hurt in her heart bit by bit, but when the question was asked again, the wound was torn apart, and it started bleeding again.

It has been a few years since she came across that question, and she thought she wouldn't hear it anymore, but it happened once again, when she least expected it.
She had befriended this person, X , and she thought that X was nice like all the other friends that she had, whom did not ask about her nose.

But one day, out of the blue, X asked the dreaded question.
The girl did not know what to say, but just mumbled, "Nothing."
X being inquisitive, asked again, "Hurry up and tell me, what happened to your nose? Do you know, you look like a Dino from the side view - the part where your nose is chipped off."

At that point of time, she felt as if knives were stabbing her. She never heard someone's words so cutting.
She felt the indescribable hurt in her heart, and the words kept ringing in her head, repeating over and over again.

She didn't know what to say, and she was confused, lost, hurt and angry.
She was angry with herself for having such a physical defect,
she was angry with her parents for saving her in the first place although she knew it was wrong, she blamed God for the life He has given her,
and that why couldn't He give her a normal nose like others, so that they wouldn't keep asking her questions.

That night, she broke down & cried.

Then as days passed, the girl learnt that Man was insensitive.
People just can't understand others who are not as normal as them, but, who doesn't want to look normal, and be normal?

But nevertheless, the girl wanted to thank God.
She wanted to thank God for giving her life,
because she knew that there were many more premature babies who don't even have the chance to see.

She learnt that she should learnt to overcome the obstacle of physical appearance, but at times, she would still feel the hurt, feel like a piece of rubbish, some freak, when people ask the question. She would feel like screaming at the person straight in the face, but she knew that it's impossible.

she has learnt to live with it, ]

i took this story from a blogger, i dont know of. Thank You(:

2008-06-19T00:13:00.000-07:00

God can turn the coldest heart into the heart of flesh.
He can win your heart.
He's the humorous lover,
always available,the richest,
the most loving
and the most caring one.

He will win your heart.

i am touched. i want to find the love of God again. is this the right way?

2008-06-14T23:57:00.000-07:00

Online Videos by Veoh.com

i love this song, super relaxing(:

2008-06-11T21:57:00.000-07:00

WHOA PAING EH.
i realised my computer built in speaker kena spoilt!
eeeeeee.
tsk. so now i can only hear the right side (facing me) if the speaker lah. worse still! its build in leh! how to change? whoaaa. those who can tell me what i should do will be greatly appreciated.
本当にありがとうございます！(^U^)/

2008-06-10T06:45:00.000-07:00

i thought this is interesting.

2008-06-09T16:57:00.000-07:00

Google翻訳ではないかかわらず、ベスト、しかし、かなり良いと思うのです。キースいただきありがとうございます！

私は行くのポストを入力するブログin日本語今日!（笑）

あまりにも悪いの皆さん , whoは使用しない,日本語翻訳.

ハハハ~! （笑）♪

p.s ：私は空腹~(-.-)

2008-06-09T08:31:00.000-07:00

i really wonder why people tend to put those "chim" nicks or whatever on thier msn. fine. i might be one of 'them' but i find it seriously weird now. wtf? okayy & the "chim" stuff they write dont really make sense. OR it might just be me PMS-ing. yah loh.

God spoke to me through a old man today. it kinda questioned my heart. it struck me as the person i am. & how i fail pathetically as a Christian.

fuck my pathetic self. its not just because of me failing as a christian. its also about why i hold on to the bloody hope. thinking about it more and more, it makes me angrier at myself- inner struggle you might say. now i realise i deserve all the hurt. how do you put this?: you know you're gonna get hurt , but yet you carry on with the crap. whoa. seriously, why am i made in this F-up way?

took me kind of long, but i am glad i realised. gonna stop hoping.

nice.

2008-06-08T21:19:00.000-07:00

HYA~!

stupidsingaporesale. stupidsingaporesale.
nooooooo.
okay maybe its not that stupid, since you got the moneyy. HAHA. guess what, i think my sister wants to go shopping? ehh.

ohyeahh. i am a happy man.
*smirks*

p.s: i want my RED nails. its cool okay, not devilish?

2008-06-07T09:45:00.000-07:00

i think i should hug myself or something. i just started watching my Japanese dramas without subtitles! omg. that is such a great achievement can?! i mean its unbelievable BUT i can actually understand whats going on even though i still cant understand most of the Japanese they use.

But then again, i can understand like the more commonly used ones, heheh. i am sooooo goooood. after watching Japanese dramas so how looooong? i have done myself proud. anyway, the reason why someone like me would be so stupid enough to go watch a Japanese drama without subtitles is cause, since for example, Zettai Kareshi (absolute boyfriend) as well as Gokusen 3 are those that are airing at the same time in japan, so its kinda newly out dramas and those people who sub the dramas normally take longer time. and so, kaisu people like me who cannot stand not seeing Haruma's face and will go crazy will chose to watch drama without subtitles.

haha.

i really wondered what happen to the people who sub Gokusen 3, are they still alive? okay, but then hor, thanks to the sub-people, i managed to put my Japanese language skills to the test and so far i think i get like 70-80%?

ohyeahh. its 1.03am now. and i am going to finish up ep 8 of Gokusen 3.

p.s: i am thinking of having RED nails:D
p.p.s: anyone has them?

2008-06-04T01:53:00.000-07:00

feeling kinda moody today.
was very tempted to scold bad words in class today, dunno why but everyone is kinda pissing me off in math class today; on handphone with loud loud song when mr leong is teaching, c'mon man, never heard of ear phones AH? i just snapped at i-dont-know-who for the loud disturbing noise.

anyway, Eileen reckons i am having pre-menstrual syndrome, yess. thats PMS for short. so i was like telling her maybe i have lah, who knows. i kinda find myself amusing, cus after snapping at i-dont-know-who, someone who on-ed that bloody music LOUDLY, i started laughing at myself? for snapping at him/her. got abit shocked at myself.
i kept telling Eileen how i am gonna scold bad words but refrained from doing so in the end, eh. i just didnt get that pissed i guess.

watched finished 'LIAR GAME' & 'KUROSAGI' japanese trilling drama. its damn good lah, can see how humans turn against each other for money. and how the clever ones swindle money from the fucking bad swinders.
yeahh, no joke, they are that fucking bad.

kurosagi's is what i prefer though, but some people might find it abit draggy. lol. up to you.
i have embed links of both dramas from mysoju.
http://www.mysoju.com/kurosagi/
http://www.mysoju.com/liar-game/

2008-06-02T08:00:00.000-07:00

patrick
eileen
group photo eileen the camera'woman'

we went for " The Architecture of Silence" on sat.

it was SUPER good man

sugoii~!

its actually modern ballet art.

the dancers are really good lah, some girls can see they have muscles know!

and some are definitely anorexic.

so skinny lah.

whoapiang eh.

wed got physics test, i am gonna jiayou for it man.

KYA~!

jya ne bye:D

p.s/ i am gonna change my blog to a new one soon. heh(:

2008-05-31T22:47:00.000-07:00

why cant i pass once in a while.

why i tied hair like a idiot.

why does the sky seems gloomy when you dont feel so good.

why is there so many crap.

why am i one of the crap.

why do i stare into space.

why memories dont stay.

why am i useless.

why cant i do anything about anything.

why dont i have the courage.

why i am letting it turn back to square one.

why am i not having the courage to do anything even if its going back to square one.

i wonder.

2008-05-30T10:37:00.000-07:00

i took some personality test.
heres the results.

ColorQuiz.com src="http://www.colorquiz.com/images/colorquizlogosmall2.gif" width=120 border=0>

chee took the free ColorQuiz.com personality test!

"Over-imaginative and given to fantasy or day-dream..."

Click here to read the rest of the results.

colour quiz: i think its quite true leh. i give it 88% accurate.

I'm a O12-C17-E48-A27-N90 Big Five!!
big five: ehh, quite okay too. i give it 87% accurate.

http://www.humanmetrics.com/cgi-win/JTypes3.asp
human metrics: though some of it is true, it is crap. i just wasted my time doing a test which i dont understand the results. or maybe i am tired? ee. neither way.
i give it 49% accurate.

2008-05-27T06:19:00.000-07:00

my boyfriend. Miura Haruma.

why memories dont stay.

yeahh, i wonder too.

like even is you tried your best to remember, you 'll just slowly forget in the end,

even if you wanted to remember.

ohwells.

cant help it eh?

haha. i just chatted online with eileen and huiru,

know what! the both lovee matsumoto jun lahh.

i dont really care, cus' no one has to snatch my boyfriend from me.

HA. HA. HA.

and whats with every one telling me my sister is damn pretty/ hot

whoa. its feels kinda weird leh,
fine.

i dont think shes all that pretty and hot after the shitass attitude she always give me.

ahhhh.

so how many people has it been eh?
4 people by far.

thats friggin' lot of people.

yikes. wow.

i sound like some jealous woman

hahh.

i dont even wanna explain.

cheesiang is in super bad mood now.

cus of what happen in school today, and she dosent even wanna talk about it.

2008-05-24T10:03:00.000-07:00

looking just like him now.

yeahh. i am happy.
its kinda random thing you know. well, you dont.

no one will know how you're feeling issnt it?

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randomness sets the day.

bytheway,

i am bored and not happy.

p.s/ haruma DAISUKI! he makes me happy. very happy.

2008-05-23T22:45:00.000-07:00

Itoen Green Tea, Haruma Miura CM.

kakoii desu yo~!
omg.
*faints*
:DD

2008-05-21T04:56:00.000-07:00

ee. i have decide to post another one since the last one got so screwed.

2008-05-21T04:08:00.000-07:00

i think i have stopped chasing after blue sky.

it was hard,
i am tired.
i am crushed.

2008-05-20T09:52:00.000-07:00

NEWS- Weeek

KAT-TUN - DON'T U EVER STOP PV

2008-05-16T00:06:00.000-07:00

okay.
i have a nice and (ahem.) prettay sister.
although she sucked at times, like how easily she can lose her temper and all,
shes not too bad leh.
considering she always let me eat her chocolates,
so whenever she comes back home from somewhere, thers always food!
damn happy lahh,

chocolates DAISUKI!

hooooooo.
i am tired.
but kinda happy?
ehh.
not really leh.
whateverrrrrrrr.
hahaha!
i just realised everybody is starting to use whateverrrr.
siqin used it just now and is soooo cute leh,
shes real cute la, you know sometimes when you look at her closely,
her cheeks super pinkish. super cute can.

eeeeeeeee.
everybody starts to 'whateverr' me whenever i BHB.
sososo saddd
bahhhhh!
nobody praise me one, so must self-praise lahh.
heehee. clever me huh?

p.s/ i am a clever TARD. ehh. tard arent suppose to be clever ne? okay, i take back:P

p.p.s/ i give you oggle at my haruma.

2008-05-15T06:46:00.000-07:00

eeeyaa~
okay.
i know imma talking like a spoilt brat here.
butbutbut
why cant i get what i want huh?
stupid leh can!
hahhh.

got pretty bad results for my mid-year,
i think im gonna burst into pool of tears (whatever, u call that) if you start asking me how i fair.
its not as if i didint work hard.
i did like my best lah
but why people who dont even lift a finger to study can get like super better results?
whoa. i seriously hate that.

eeeeeee.
i hate myself for thinking like that laaa.
but i cant help it leh.
notfairnotfairnotfair.
boooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo.

im hungry.
D:

2008-05-13T01:52:00.000-07:00

i was just wondering.

if i were to pass on.
how many people will come to my funeral,
how many of them will cry.
and how many people will remember me years and years to come?

i wonder...

2008-05-12T01:25:00.000-07:00

cheesiang wants to go Japan. Badly.

mannn.
menses just sucked, was in uber pain in first 2 periods of class.
SUPER, UBER. i tell ya
cannot walk or stand up lahh, wthh!
haha.

anyway, i just finish watching Gokusen 3 from
http://www.mysoju.com/gokusen-3/
its a show about japanese 'ah bengs'
whoaaa. super damn cool lah the show.
a must must must watch, oh and ah
Muira Haruma's acing in it.
whooo.

i am super happy now.
i dont know why either,
maybe cause of the show?
i guess so.
jya ne!:D

2008-05-05T08:41:00.000-07:00

okayokay.
feeling ULTRA PISSED now.
cus' someone above my floor is smoking, screw him lah, all the BLOODY SMOKE COMING DOWN CAN?
whaaaaaa!
i am so despreately fanning the sickening smell off, but WTH?
it didnt work lah!

then hor the stupid navigator to my blog is stuck can?
TSK.
dunno what happen also. so nottt a IT person
aryaaaaaaa~

its 11.45pm.
& i want to scream.

p/s: i screwed chinese & history.

i was halfway asleep during chinese & history. totally not concentrating lah, and hist i left with 10 mins before time's up.
so not possible lah, so must be something wrong. zettai.
chinese i left with 20 mins, shocked samantha, when i drop dead on the table.

yay.
now its 11.50pm.
bloody smoke smell GONE.
hallelujya.

2008-05-03T07:18:00.000-07:00

i got stalked.
by a crow on friday morning on my way to school.
stupid bird scare the wits outta me when it ' whoooosh' by,
got taken back. and stared at the stupid bird's beady small eyes.
probably its cus' its jealous of my big eyes, at least more than it, for that matter.

then it tailed my fat butt lah,
think i am scared by youuu?
yes.
unfortunately.
i thought of my mum telling me last time how she got pecked by those failed products.

i was scared. fine lah
it was big also lah
aiya wahever.
it followed me all the way to the bus stop. FOLLOWED.

screw the crow who stalked me.
screw imeem, now i cant find the song i want during worship.
screw FB, no offence peeps, butta i really dunno how that stupid web works.

HAHA, i am chilled:D

2008-05-02T19:25:00.000-07:00

find me in heaven.

if you please.

2008-05-01T04:49:00.000-07:00

AHHH.
my toothie hurts.
):

2008-04-26T20:51:00.000-07:00

三浦春马　Miura Haruma

he really like damn handsome lahhh.

omg.

*ahhhh*

fi-fi-finally found his pictures mann.

yahoo just cant be trusted.

Google better can?!

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and erm..

i am hungry.

heh.

2008-04-26T18:18:00.000-07:00

there!

got super random the other day and started to cam-whore with the web-cam.

eeee.

whatever.

love green.

2008-04-25T01:23:00.000-07:00

hellohello.
get sick of my blogskin for far too long already.
so i randomly picked a skin,
but i am too lazy to change my profile stuff and all.
so YOU just have to wait and see.
heheh:D

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ohandah.
i took lotsa (lmao!) random and idoiotic looking photos with my sis lappie webcam.
too crazy about it, i tell youuu
gonna load it all mann.
haha!

and i bite.

我不想忘记你.

2008-04-22T06:47:00.000-07:00

郭静- 我不想忘记你.

W-INDS

2008-04-19T00:57:00.000-07:00

a sister of mine love this japan group called ' W-INDS ' alot.
so does me.
and the thing is, they danced.
hotly.

boogie woogie (ブギウギ) 66 remix

4 seasons

Still Believe.

2008-04-16T04:26:00.000-07:00

And.
i tried. moving on.
but how come its always so tough?
whyy. whyy.
sometimes it gets so tiring, i wish that god can reveal himself to me.
so he can comfort and tell me everything is going to be fine.
you know, that doesnt come very easily,
and.
i am disheartened.
i am sad.
i feel real empty.
you know, after all this.
i find that, no hope = no hurt = no dissappointment.
i am trying not to care, so that i wont get hurt anymore.
but sometimes i dont have a choice to ignore what happen, or what was said and done.

God says not to harden my heart, and he'd walk with me through.
all those very hurt places, take my hand and together heal them.
but.
its hard not to.
i am closing up.
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i guess its not up to me, no choice left.
i'll mask it on.

Not Falling Apart.

2008-04-15T06:46:00.001-07:00

Why am i always living like this?
too tired, too sad, too lonely, too scared, too stressed.
i wonder.

Because Becus'

2008-04-15T01:43:00.000-07:00

boooyoo.
alrights. damn.
now i want the polo.
OH. WTH.
been like soooooooooo tempted to buy loads of stuff lately.
ah. shit.
holga-polariod. lomo.
haha. not a need, but a want.
(:

2008-04-14T05:15:00.000-07:00

Hello.
just finished 'HERO' -jap movie. on crunchyroll.
hmm. was okay lah, not too bad.
wasnt as good as i thought though.
andandand
thing is, TAKUYA KIMURA is super hot lah. pffft.

i finished 'sex is zero' too, the only thing i can say is.
its super horny and not a nice movie. plot and all sucks.
unless you wanna know what pornography is, i suggest that you forget about it.

oh. man.
i heard like really funny stories of what happened at ian's chalet after we were gone.
waahh.
people drank.
and puked, people talking to themselves, people scolding others.
hahaha
missed all of that lah. ):
hooooo
me being like dead tired & all, the rest bugging to go home. ahh.
but though i was already 'half dead' by the time i left the chalet.
i still drank know!
some lime volka aybin brought from cheers.
didnt drink much cause i was alr soooooooo sleepy.
haveta keep myself awake.
then the rest started telling how nevin will have to sent me home and all. hah.

slept like half awake, asleep in the uncomfortable bus ride with nevin's ipod.
wasnt at my right mind at all. cus'
i just wanna sleep.
aiya. super wasted. my day/night.

booooo. ):

IPHONE

2008-04-10T04:59:00.000-07:00

hahahaahaa! haven laughed like this since last week.
jus saw xiaxue's review on the iphone & the fake china kind.
super bimbotic but funney leh.

i think iphone's cool lah. china one also not too bad.
except that when the china phone plays china songs.
and you gotta gotta see when she opened the music thingo in the china phone.
china songs that i think my parents know and like of came.
her reaction?
classic.

2008-04-10T02:57:00.000-07:00

you know sometimes we wish that we didnt say just what was said.
i feel that way too.
i have always been a very direct person, saying all kinds of things others wouldnt want to say out.
but what if things happen and there was no more chance to say that again, wouldnt you regret?
i know i would.
so i said.
but i immediately would start to regret what i'd said out.
too bad then. too bad. i would start telling myself.

paid for the kinder bueno, left empty handed.
fell.
at the stair to my block.
i wonder whats happening, i have been spacing out quite badly these days.
hahh. guess imm tired out already.

2008-04-09T08:11:00.000-07:00

f_ed.
i censored the word cus i think u cant take it.
f_ing pissed.
*hooooooooooooooooooo*
i needa chill. big time.
that woman&her mouth made my day man. start the day feeling like _.
i regretted not screaming at her. back.
like what he said: trash it out lah.
i love to do that ya know.
but i was stunned at someone who is totally irrelevant telling me off like that.
wtf can?
i dont wanna chill. too bad.
sometimes u jus wanna trash it out. (like what i am doing now)

AHHH! shuthehelll up lah!
oh. and it started like this.
me freaking up after realising that i must WEAR that pe tee.
knowing me, YOU'LL know its comoon for me to get 'ji dong'.
but obviously somebody dont know me well enough to know that, hah!
so like after awhile i started talking to munhan in other topics, so what if i was 'ji dong' again?

whoa. then that person thought i was brooding over the whole 'pe thingo' which i am NOT.
she said very unkindly to ask me to relax&stop thinking about the pe thing.
alrights. how am i suppose to be relaxing after getting told off so unkindly?
how about its girl? keep your bloodly mouth s.h.u.t. when you know NUTS abt anything.
so when i told her that i am not talking about the 'pe thingo'.
stupid girl persisted and said that theres no need for me to be so 'kua zhang' about the pe thingo.
so you understand chinese/english? not talking about thatt?

if u were me, dont tell me you'll not get angry okay.
maybe u wont, cus you're not me. and u'll nvr know how i would have felt la.

so i case anyone finds that i am a vuglar person, and cannot accept a friend like moi. guess what.
so be it lo.
im so trying to be not a vulgar person. its hard okay.
i dont say it unless u stepped on my line. yeahh. (;

2008-04-07T04:37:00.000-07:00

whaaaa! duper tired after NAFA test leh. aha.

was not intending to blog at all, AT ALL.

but due to my honourable deeds and how my BHB-ness cannot withstand itself,

&soooo.

everyone knows i sucked at sports. in a sense.

yaah, so when it was my turn for the lord and behold- standing broad jump,

inner me was like: o.m.g. die, die, embarrassment.

i knew i couldnt do it lah, either i will laugh my ass off, or just faint, on the spot (haha, i didnt.)

and so for the first try, i was swinging my arm, front, back, front, back. but my stupid knees didnt coordinate at all and so i look like a freak-trying-to-mimick mr bean.

yaaa, so u get the idea.

and when i jumped, HAHA. i just walked and started laughing at myself (out of embarrassment)

then in some way or another i guess visuallising really works, cause sockyong reminded me of it when i was compalining to everyone beside me how i could not do standing broad jump and all.

sockyong was like: try to visuallise first lah.

i was like: ok loh. i try.

then i shut my eyes and started visuallising it, was sure it will not help at all at that point.

and so the second try came.

i could feel my inner tension forming, swinging my arms, knees.

then i try to imagine myself extending my legs out and forward.

TA-DA.

i did it.

i jumped like 170cm! :O

normally i jumped like pathetically 150~154cm?

hahahaha.

now u can imgaine my shock and surprise, uberly cool lah me!

but still hor. my sit-ups cannot make it lah.

i do 28 times, 2 more freaking points to a A, but my stomach collapsed before i could do anything.

awwww.

sit&reach got 48cm.

inclined pull-up got 10. hah, i got intergity not to cheat. (:

shuttle run got 11.0s. could have done better, in my opinion. but since there was so much people, major emabarrassement to run second time. hohoho.

now i realised i am extremely good at running short distances. oohyeah~

Beverly was damn good lah. she run like 9.9s?

can compete with guys alr lo.

*claps*

2008-04-06T06:36:00.000-07:00

ahhhh. my back hurts man. i dunno why eh.
oooops.

shit.

now i remember, i did like split side stretches.
its like i over-do it or something.
ahhh. die.

me dont wanna sit on wheelchair.
*hooooo*
i'll try and be careful from now on.

aha! peopleee, pray for my quick recovery yeah?
thank youuuuu:D

2008-03-21T19:26:00.000-07:00

all growned.

my easter present! from ER jie :DD

see my cute photos are being loaded :D

still testing out the loading photos thingo.

so if it looks weird, ehh. dont blame me.

went out with very important part of my life yesterday.

they're like my family, though we're not related.

i really felt very loved. when i am with them.

i felt what it is to be accepted, which i cant see much.

but things do happen and i thought that its not gonna be the same anymore.

but thank god, i think its okay now.

i love them. (:

2008-03-20T07:13:00.000-07:00

time to change my blog skin.
though i still think its prettay.
i wanna try having creating my own skin. HAH. stop laughing lahhh

2008-03-20T05:07:00.000-07:00

see! shes called bailey people. damn cute right, look like bearbear.

i want one too mann.

will my whining work?

*eyes big. full of tears*

haha! i wanna try to abduct her soon lah.

too cute already. boohoohoo.

by the way, shes felicia ngaim's puppy!

my evil twin lah.

im the angel shes the devil. too bad. my blog.

heh.

i love felicia! though

not jus cause shes my twin!

she got the same birthday as me leh, so cool right?

haha! but shes older then me by 5 years loh!
or issit 4 years? hahaha. cant remember.

ps/ dont try to KOPE bailey from me ah:D

2008-03-19T08:50:00.000-07:00

i must act like a girl.

"be more gentle lah"
alot of people keep telling me that loh. its my character people.
i know it doesnt suit my cute-look-like-sec-2 face, but too bad lah.
omg. cause of my manly-ness. i am being told that i will not get a bf.
OR my bf shall be a SISSY. told to me by munhan. cause i am too man.
you mean i man, then bf have to be sissy meh?
so gay lah.

whatintheworld?
like so gross lah. is like "niang men" loh.

i rather die okay.

and my bf is suppose to like me for who i am can.
weirdness and manliness is part of the package, maybe not manly-ness though.
it suppose to attract, not scare his guts out lah.

haha, stupid topic, double random.
i know my face dun suit my character lah.

gees.
too bad.
this is what you get.
hahhh~!

p/s: whoaaa~ i am getting kinda hungry leh. and its 12.15am already. awwww

2008-03-18T01:23:00.000-07:00

SEE! MY MUSIC BOX BECOME SMALLER ALR!
thankeww ah nevin! (:

I LOVE MY SISTER HUGS

2008-03-18T00:31:00.000-07:00

booo.
boohoohoo.
boohoohoohoohoo.
in case u cant see from the above, im 'crying'.
whining's more like it.
yes, i am WHINING. hah.
):
i am so stressed up with f&n alraeddyy.
wad's up with the COURSEWORK anyways?
freaking pain in the arse.
not that i dislike f&n okayyy, theres too much for me to handle alreadyy. leh.
gimme a break lahh.
and to think that i want to become a f&n teacher. a very PRETTY+cool+weird teacher too! (:
i might get bullied by the kids, but who cares, i still get my pay.
plus the pretty teacher. ahem, me. gets kids get motivated!
AHAHAHAHAHAAA.

haha. i am getting kinda tired by alot of things lately.
maybe cause im thinking too much, about studies, family, friends...
or maybe i am listening to too much emo songs,
i want someone to talk to. someone to share my problems with. (provided we'll click.)
tried sharing with my dumbass sister ytd, late night. after she got home from work.
she so didnt listen to me lah, she was busy with telling me to get my fat ass off the computer chair and let her use the comp so she can watch some lame-old japanese drama that we've watch before. (i did tell her, see? i am nice kayy)

i was thinking of how to do my f&n research lah. wadthehell.
SO STRESS ALREADY SOMEMORE.
she was telling me how shes sooo gonna get her lappie, yada yada.
so go get your laptop already larhh. hooo you.
haha.
so while waiting for me to finish my 2nd factor of my f&n coursework, so she can use the comp.
she fell alseep.
so fast somemore leh. guess she was tired lah.

& i pull her blankie for her okay?? (laste time)
so sweet of me lah. how to such a cute&sweet sister anywhere?
hahaha. enough of my bhb-ness. gonna take my nap alr.
(;

2008-03-13T19:27:00.000-07:00

hooo people.
wenna watch step up 2 yesterdayyy and its was like WOW. it blasted me off my feet, toes. heh.
shouldshouldshould watch it if ya haven.
so damn cool lah. as if anyone of us can dance like that can.
im so taking hip-hop classes
eyyyaaa!
but not now eh, cause ballet's alr costing half my life.
& i cant commit to so much classes at the same time. *fuuuuuuuuu*
no offence. butta peepoles nowadays can only do shuffling (maybe not all, but thats all i see)
so sad lah, shuffling's cool. if you're the only person doing it.
aha.
im saying this cause the people in MY class look at me as if they've done something great, after they shuffled at my sight.
so i gave them a "wadthehell" look. then they start to hee-haw.
i dunno why they're laughing
LMFAO.

dang.
talking about fat asses, i realise i hav it too. omgoodness.
cause ytd, after watch step up with my sis at the hub
she wenta buy her jeans, so you know i was also walking around cant stand there like a goon ne?
then i found some not too bad looking shorts and asked for my size ard 27? maybe.
it couldnt fit lah, then the auntie gave me the biggest size, size 30!! wth?!
arggghhh
so sad lah. i got fat butt.
so now my LMAO. awlways got a "F" fat, fat, FATTT. sign.
tsktsk.

p/s: didnt so my el tys nor f&n ytd. ehhhto.

2008-03-12T20:19:00.000-07:00

thursday, march 13 around 11.20.15am.
im rotting at home. guess what. march holidays sucks (except for the time im able to sleep like a pig/log/dog wadever and all)
but no use at all. cause im still tired.
& then i gotta stop myself from getting emo, then i will not find that unravelling my veins is kinda fun. (kid-ding.)
part of the reason why imma still so tired is cause i didnt get to sleep properly.
cause the night before, i suddenly have this vision that it was nearing the 'o's and fear just came in i was super scared and _, and i thought about it and alot of other stuff and my concern grew&grew.
ya lo. then i didnt get to sleep properly laaahhff.

gonna do my EL TYS 1998 P2 later.
gonna do my f&n reasearch later.

p/s: had a fun day with val ytd.

2008-03-09T21:53:00.000-07:00

im soooo watchin' this. man-o-mannn.

anyway, raise up yours hands if u think its nice lahh.

ohyeahh.

im not watching jus cause the guy is shuai neh, cos thats A part of the reason. but, cos i think its very romantic can?! hahhh kakoiii~

2008-02-24T04:40:00.001-08:00

okay. someone called jus now and told me she found my wallet. yay. ms siti shes called. shes meeting me at 6.15pm angmokio mrt control station. i thank god for her and hope everyting turns out fine.

2008-02-24T04:40:00.000-08:00

i broke my pinky promise. sorry ah dude): hahh~
and i lost my wallet in the cinemas on saturday when i watched "p.s, i love you" with my sister.
its quite a nice movie leh. super touched by the husband. yeahhh.
oohhoo and my sister's nags on how much more responsibility i should actually possessed makes me even more pissed and tired then i alr am. couldnt blame me for screaming at her, in which she too screamed back at.
gonna hav to go make a new ez-link card and cancel my atm card hopefully by tomorrow if ms pari takes pity on me and let me off the extra cca practice, which i dun think she will, but then again its okay.

p.s: L was goodd. hes real shuai and cutee, besides, you know, jeong-hoon. watch the movie and think hes the right candidate to run for alongside with jeong-hoon for my future husband election.

2008-02-18T00:18:00.000-08:00

GEHHH. trying to get my henna out using "johnson's" baby lotion. yeahhh like its gonna work. it just caused me a whole lot of pain if u get what i mean, im literally scrubbing it leh. got my name into the minor offence book. ayaa. i find myself more and more blending into the society. being fake or prob known as the fakers, yup. and when you're showing ur trueself. ppl says i've got atitude prob. *raised eye-brows* haha. quite stupid.

p/s: ooh. i got what u meant after hearing ppl elaborate it out loud. sorry i cause u much inconvience(:

p/p/s: i waaaannaa watch "L-change the world" kenichi matsuyama is super hot. at least than you!:D contact me to watch it yeahh!

2008-02-17T23:29:00.000-08:00

i need somewhere to say it out, too much clotting up. alrights(: gonna say/yell/scream it out. tune in to another blog eh? if you're not interested. my blog's kinda the only place able to vent my frustration.

hella great, i think im having inbalanced hormones kinda thingo. ohnooo. my sprirtual life right now ain't kinda subarashi right now, its rather bad, *fuuuuuuu* i couldnt deny that god never touched me at all, he always make me realised his love for me every service,the times i felt unloved. and i would always get chocked up with tears. he shows his love for me by songs, songs that present my deepest desires and in which man always fails. and it always touched my heart and make me to open up my heart to him once more, being vunerable. but circumstances do come and harden my heart. he said to opening up my heart so that we can walk through the wounded places together, its the promise. his promise. he said he'll hold me hand while we walked through life. i know i gotta trust him a whole lot more, even if i felt real alone in this walk of life.

theres this story that my sister told me; a woman was going through her second child birth and was near the brim of death being not able to deliver her baby on the scedued time. being a strong christian, she didnt give up hope but kept praying. then she saw a person with a soft expression came. he smiled at her the whole time and sat by her side and touched her tummy, in the blink of an eye, he was gone. she delivered her baby safely. thats her colleague story. cool huh. i was quite amazed but felt unfair, cus god didn chose to appear to me. but i guess im still not up to it yet, sadly:(

p/s: i really am starting to dislike those talking to him, its like agreeing with him. like ohmygoodness(!) can. cant believe eveyone's like sucking up to him. gth yeahh.

2008-02-16T23:58:00.000-08:00

you're the only person who would come for me, lord. thank you for making those sunsets and snrises and thank you for being there.

2008-02-15T08:05:00.000-08:00

freaking pissed, and insulted.
there was one that somehow, maybe. came to my rescue. at least there was people who said something.
i dislike school. dislike him more, that double headed snake.

2008-02-10T00:27:00.000-08:00

HAHA! SO MUCH FUN THINGS HAPPPEN DURING CNY CANS?!
whoa! firstly the 'maybe ar maybe ar' thing is gonna get famous in tertiary alr sial! starting crapping ard with it ytd, then jose and KOKLENG started maybe ar-ing.. sooo funny larhs.

this new year i toook alot of pics, haha. got prob uploading in blog though
(dun ask me whyy), cus i too clever can? aha. ohoh. Iryu Team Medical Dragon is the nicest show ever! serious, super cool lah. nth about romance. so dont worry, guys can watch it too! eheh.
ya lo. tats abt it huh. jae neh!

2008-02-05T19:13:00.000-08:00

wow. nothing could hav been more ambarrassing mans. ok i nt gonna talk abt it, cos im going to go hysterical. haha! whoohooo! ANG PAOS gonna come my way. oohyeahhoooyeah.. super shoick lah. gonna hav my reunion dinner today at grandma's, first time ever leh, it will taste sooo good;D
and gosh, im super tired alr and its only 11.16am! i really hope i did danced well. ohhshit. dun think dun think. aahhh! im thinking! ok. relax. go watch ur dramas. hooo. yeahh.

2008-02-05T06:36:00.000-08:00

dun expect too much from me eh? cos i dun think im the kind of typical 'nice' person, jus a A- problematic kid, and dun ask me why eh, ask god. awww.. too bad tat i hav disappoint so many ppl cos, everyone has their limts ya? im reaching mine alr.. hooo.. like peak point. top. people don't believe, i cant strangle them and make them listen, wadeveer. its all my fault anyw. like everybody says so. eeee. wadever mans;D

2008-01-31T05:09:00.000-08:00

i realise its easy to say nasty stuff to others but harder to admit to wrong
i guess i had hurt alot of people without knowing, its hurting real hard inside too. i really dun feel like admmitting it, but life made me the way im now. acting tough jus didnt help, crying didnt help. it was a sign of weakness and i hated it- to my guts. i couldnt help it when it rolled down you know, i couldnt help it. God forgive me- im sorry.

2008-01-28T00:02:00.000-08:00

i. am. going. to. go. mad.
jus what is the problem wif my darn com man. after a series of hooha with it already. and was eventually fixed, then ok, the Internet?!, alrights fixed. and AGAIN! gaaaahhh. dammit. now this new problem of mine dear com re-appeared. guess what, this time my stupid com wants to hang on me. chooses to. i have shutdown it like countless of times. please dun do this to me):

anywh, tml's f&n, we'r having reunion dinner! like whoohooo! my mummy ying and daddy shawn is gonna cook for thei l'il girl. me. aww. nice eh? LOL. i knowiknow, its too cheesy. but i likee it! daisuki!(like it.)

and ya. im so having the psp and Nintendo craze. die. i wanna play man, i wanna play, i wanna play! oohya. haven watch the 'silent hill' lend by SQ yet. me dun dare to watch alone larh. gonna scare myself. maybe watching during informal shepharding? haven even brought my CNY clothes, got so much test comming up, somemore. shit the hist test. damn hard lah, gonna flunk it, tsk. so long.

2008-01-25T04:23:00.000-08:00

hooowheee!
had tons of fun haning ard with MISS sim and the rest;DD
we took lotsa photos man!
i took with jieying mum and father shawn. hee.
'happy family' luhs, shall be uploading the photos onces they sent me yay!
brought my 'spring heart' blush at bishan watsons today, like finally.
went last week but they didnt hav the stock for the light-pink, bt wadever mans.
got it in the end. haha.

drats.
having f&n test on next mon on; carbo. fats and protein.
f&n coursework on 'overall planning draft-1 on tues
history test on thurs on; cold war stupid cold war damn hard to understand lah.
gonna die soon ):
lalalalalalalalalala~
God help me. im desperate alr.
hooooooo*

2008-01-24T04:59:00.000-08:00

heck.
someone. jus blacklisted my name on the pile of girls-with-uber-short-skirt.
wow. im like wowow.
i dun deny that my skirt is long or anything. its normal alrights?
i even tried comparing my skirt with other girls. its the same freaking length lah.
got short meh?
tsk. AND i dun fold my skirt mans. like everyone keep saying tat.
its just tat i've gt fat hips and the waistline thingy is high, so im wearing my skirt high understood? and i too, tuck out my shirt cos it'll look weird with my highwaist skirt if i don't.
ahhh.
now U get it. whoever u are tat says my skirt is too short.

2008-01-22T01:37:00.000-08:00

hoooowheeeee!
get to skip school today!
ahhhhhD:
got my eyes infected. again. like wthwthwthwth????
so plain gross lah, oso dunno wad happen man, woke up at normal time.
find the oh-so-familiar feel of my eye getting infected and swollen.
but this time my stupid right eye was infected rather badly, so i jus gave myself a day off.
went to polyclinic an waiting for half an hour plus before it got to my turn,
the damn queue no. was jumping ard so much tat i thought tat i missed my turn.
the doc didnt ask me much jus checked my temp, and use the torch to look at my
UN-INFECTED eye.
she damn good what.
am feeling the bitter-ness of the eye drop nw.
if u put on drops before. so bitter lah.
4 times day. booooooooo
the drop only costs $1.50,
toatl for the consultation fee and drops.
kaching!
$5.40. cheap eh?

i find tat school's getting stresser, gt poa test on control acct tml, and chem diagnostic test on thurs.
whoa. fuuuuu*
people find me tat im weird. in a nicer term, its called random.
wow. like i've nvr heard tat before.
hello? its my character, ya talking abt man
too bad if anyone of you cant take it.
then get the hell away frm me, cos ya nvr know, it passes like a disease,
on to next innocent lamb. like you:D
its doesnt matter to me if i hav anyone, im jus glad God is with me:)

ohhh.. finally my com is fixed. yay.
its laggy-ier than usual. sian.
the guy who came and fix my connection name, Ali, as told by my sister, told me theres smth wrong with the connection at the hub?
the hub. yeah. nt amk hub. but the hub.

got so fearful the other day. the fear was gripping,
i felt real vulnerable.
was sososo scared, stunned. felt myself trembling. cant walk, sit.
was shaking myself to stop the trembling. didnt work
wanted to cry. was too shocked, no tears came
jus stared. stared. tears began to roll.
i really thank the guys for going back home with me.
i dunno hw i would hav made it back myself.

haha. feeling kinda random nw.

2008-01-17T04:01:00.000-08:00

im soo emotionally inclined.
shit to them. hoooo.
got alot of hooha going ard these days, fuuuuuuu*(blowing fringe-in a cool way)
i love my thick straight fringe, tat makes me look like a kid. yeahh.
oohoohooh..
had this rather lame conversation with nemo jus nw-

conversation with jo(nemo) on my bhb-ness (edit-ed):

God sees my heart, i know hes the one that loves me most: D says:
my font like very cute right? special in a sense.

1/60=-[ jOsiePoo ]-= CRUISEship~ Heb 12:1-13~ Because the Lord disciplined those He loves says:
u cute?

1/60=-[ jOsiePoo ]-= CRUISEship~ Heb 12:1-13~ Because the Lord disciplined those He loves says:
i wanna vomit. lol.

God sees my heart, i know hes the one that loves me most: D says:
OTHER THAN TAT LAH! I ALR NOE

God sees my heart, i know hes the one that loves me most: D says:
no need to say again. hee. ltr i paisei;D

1/60=-[ jOsiePoo ]-= CRUISEship~ Heb 12:1-13~ Because the Lord disciplined those He loves says:
WHAHAAA

1/60=-[ jOsiePoo ]-= CRUISEship~ Heb 12:1-13~ Because the Lord disciplined those He loves says:
eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

1/60=-[ jOsiePoo ]-= CRUISEship~ Heb 12:1-13~ Because the Lord disciplined those He loves says:
u BHB

1/60=-[ jOsiePoo ]-= CRUISEship~ Heb 12:1-13~ Because the Lord disciplined those He loves says:
ultimate mans!

super kua zhang lah she. haha
and she didnt mentioned abt whether my font looks nice. like, wadthe?
eeee. lamed.
ohya she told me abt NP unit wearing school uni on this satD:
my uni gonna stink i tell ya. been wearing for a week. eheh.
awww... sorry guys. HAH!

2008-01-16T04:13:00.000-08:00

uh-oh.
im gonna flunk maths.
die.
i gt 11/20 for my maths test on algebra!
tats so sad can?
so lan until i dunno wad to say. in deep shock.
howhowhow!!
anyh, i hav gt this chinese teacher frm china, like. wow.
i dun like her man, super fierce lah
making me hate her lessons. eeeeeeee

gonna do stupid chinese homework later, skipping maths- dunno how to do, el- lazy(anyw, is pass up on fri, still gt time. haha)
watching the 7th ep of my k-drama " the man in vineyard"
super stupid and lame. eeeee.
go watch it if u wanna be dumb:D

2008-01-11T07:54:00.000-08:00

THANKS AR YINING! SHE SAYS IM CUTE!
lol.
i always am. anyh. haha.
on a random tone, i so hate lizards.
they nvr fail to make me scream at the sight of them, if they are the kind of fat ones.
tats worse. they make me cry. aha!
i like cockroaches though, as long as they stay on the ground abt 30cm away frm me, im finee wif it. ya
in a sense lizards are more disgusing then cockroaches.
so there. hah.
too bad if u dun agreeD:

2008-01-09T05:14:00.000-08:00

EILEEN SAYS IM PRETTAYYY: DD
ohyea!
hahas noone says tat before mans, you made me a happy little girl that want her barbies.
shall be able to have more femininity. aha
i brought this book 'captivating' yesterday. wowow.
then it struck me that all woman; be it girls, teens, adults or older women in their forties, whenever, whatever.
deep now inside their hearts they longed to be pursued, and fought for.
one of the part says, " Sometimes the idea of living as a hermit appeals to all of us. No demands, no needs, no pains, no disappointment. But that is because we have been hurt, worn out."

its also says here that all woman wants to be accepted and pursued by the ones they love.
for who we truly are deep down in their hearts, and many of us have been embarrassed by these thoughts, i must say i am also one of them.
i also wanna find my prince charming cans?!
haha. we dont want to be pictured as those vulnerable kinds (even though we kinda thought about it.. eh)
hah. and so if u caught me reading the book ya noe what im reading ehs:D
i want to be pursued by JOHN-HOON!
ahhhh... my prince, so shuai and shining, in his white tux, riding a horse.. nono.. car, bus, taxi, whatever!
and he will say;" No matter how long it takes, no matter how far, i will find you."
ohmytians!
i blushing alr lahs! aha!
ohya, heres one of the quotes i find it quite meaningful;

He saw that Fatima's eyes were filled with tears.

"you crying?"

"I'm a woman of the desert," she said, adverting her face.

"But above all, I'm woman."

- Paul Coelho

2008-01-08T05:12:00.000-08:00

i feel real overwhelmed by friends, family, studies.
whats my purpose for living?
i think God's my only purpose. without him. i seriously think theres no point in living.
im tired of it. sick of it.

u know when sometimes u actually wished tat u have nvr been born?
well, i always did. even now.
i wished i was an angel, nt cos they're angelic and all
bt cos the are in heaven. with god.
and tat's wad i really wanted.
they wouldnt hav to go through life, and though they're of lower ranks than us humans,
they are happy, contented, joyous.

hmm..mm..
i think that's nice.

2008-01-05T19:10:00.000-08:00

school was bloody crap.
i guess even though the stupid Principal change the crap rules and stuff.
somethings jus dont EVER change. alrights man.
im so feaking pissed with the wadever shit i hav to put up wif alr.
home or school.
F***king hell.

so much for my happy ending huh?

but thank god ms pari saw i was troubled, and asked me abt it.
ya. and i told her.
and she made me realised those crap werent worth my time. yeah.

2008-01-03T03:39:00.000-08:00

i feel like shit.

complaining

2007-12-28T05:06:00.000-08:00

okae!
for those ppl tired of me complaining, oohoohooh, good news!
YOU jus have to skip this yea?
yeahyeah. .
im so seriously gonna set my blog's setting right. the date is so freaking corrupted can?
its always yester-day's post
eeeeeeeee. . . why like tat???
well, blame it on my DUMB-ness towards IT stuff
i cant help it (:
i AM a female.
(to those who disagree. . .blahh, blahhh, blahhhh too bad. god made me a female)
im supposed to be bad at this kinda stuff.
so help already! (dun just stare at the screen. i give u my thanks)
aiya!
sui ban lah ( my hanyupinyin sucks can? u jus have to guess.haha)
ohya!

my 2008 new year resolutions!
okok. i know you are excited!:D
YAY!

1. grow to be closer with god, read bible more! (oops..D:)

2. to improve and get a closer relationship with my family (father, mother and my stupid sis)

3. get realistic. stop emo-self frm running rampage. (Gahhh!!)

4. be some real good friend (ohyeah~ ppl say im a bad friend. watever, trying my best alr lahD:)

5. have some real good friends (since the ppl i met are just acquaintances. shoots lah)

6. get some good results for next year 'O's.

alrights!
tats about it lah.
will update on more resolutions if i suddenly think of.
yesyes(:

ohya! almost forgetting!

went shopping at buguis street today with huiru!aha. i bought my long awaited jeans. yay man!and my bunny bag. haha. alrights! im naming it usagi. its jap for bunnies anyh!

hahaha!

sleepless nights:(

2007-12-27T18:42:00.000-08:00

ohman. . .
you know i haven been sleeping well this few days
and its very weird for a sleeper like me
onmytian!
i like normally sleep at 12-1 plus. am.
then will wake up in the afternoon
around 12 like tt, to 1pm
so normally i dun see the morning yea
bt like this few days i keep waking up in the middle of the night
drifting in and out of sleep
ahhh!
its HORRIBLE laars
then i will like wake up at 6 plus am in the morning again
cannot get back to sleep
so sad lah
:(

shoots

2007-12-25T21:06:00.000-08:00

shucks laah~
i hav a manly voice again, yeah u probably get why
now i cant even sing. aaaaaabbbbbbccccccdddddddeeeeeeee
LOL
ohyeah ytd, which is the tuesday( date corrupted)
went to watch " i am the legend "
you know even though the movie was PG,
i felt tt it should be changed to NC16. serious.
its gonna scare the little kids to tears.
i heard frm the back that they said someone got so 'scared'
that she cried. lol.
i didnt.
i merely grabbed nevin shirt until he was the one crying. i mean literally.
hahahaha
he was complaining that his shirt was gonna tore, (which obviously it didnt, where got shirts so fast tore wan? i mean his was a 'billabong-ing' shirt leh, nt made-in-china kind okae?!)
haha, was quite scary lah
and touching too, during the part when he said god didnt exist and stuff, and how he sacrifice himself. so heroic can?
and nevin told me he wasnt going to bring me watch 'alien vs predator2'
dun wan dun wan loh.
yeah, think hes a good friend
cos i asked him out on Christmas like last minute that kinda thing
then he still 'pei' wo leh
what a nice brother!
to those single juniors out there!
grab your chance!
HAHAHA
:P

didi, i want a didi

2007-12-24T20:18:00.000-08:00

its christmas time peeps!
alrights.
MERRY CHRSTMAS EVERYONE!
may you be blessed with loads of presents. ehuh.
ya but skipping aside the emo thing hor
i went caroling ytd laar. ohyeah! was so much fun
and i saw alot of cute didis can? so cute laah
haven 'grow' up yet.
so in conclusion!
I WANT A DIDI PLEASE!;D

2007-12-23T23:01:00.000-08:00

in my heart, theres a box.
and in this box, is where i kept all my hurt that i didnt tell.
and sometimes, when i didnt closed it tightly enough,
some of the hurt flows out..
and by then,
i wouldnt know which hurt had hurt more..

6 _ points

2007-12-18T21:19:00.000-08:00

LIPING was the national top can!?
so pro lah she!
i am really happy for her!
ehuh.
haaa~
cant say so for myself though
i tought i could get better since i put in so much hard work
got kinda sad over my results
bt i got 6 _ points.
i really really did my best and still get this kind of results, if i said im happy i mus be joking laars[so im nt joking! hahahaha]
ya lor.
i worried for a bunch of ppl laah, bt they managed to scrape through:D
thank god!
anyway sorry abt the wrong infor on the stage crew stuff which im gonna do, bt actually wad im doing the filp board
aha!
find out this satuday guys ;D
and so miss ng here is so gonna embarrass herself bt shes doing for god!
amen.

2007-12-16T22:27:00.000-08:00

heyeheh!
lalalalalalala
EMO-ness gone. whoohoo~
haha ppl i have gt good news man!
im gonna volunteer to help the stage crew wif the moving for scenes for this coming sat Christmas service!
excited? yaah!
its my first time lah! doing smth for NP1!
today is the rehearsal thing lah at 7.30..
abit of "dunno-wat-to-do"
but i'll try my best! heheh

p.s: kim jeong hoon came to singapore! saw him on teevee and he is the shuai-est!
aha!^0^

2007-12-15T23:08:00.000-08:00

i am tired of crying.

God loves me.

2007-12-12T22:17:00.000-08:00

i just want to protect those i love, hmmm, bt its getting harder.
and i really dont think tat its possible anymore...
people i actually love has began to say hurtful things to me
it is just not that easy to be strong, i found out
and in the end theres no one who loves me for who i really am.
have i not been trying?
i know im unwanted.
but who knows maybe i'll be loved when i get there.
in heaven.^^

the pee.

2007-12-02T09:13:00.000-08:00

ohhgoodieeee!
its tat yellow puddle again!
and this time , i actually slipped becos of it.
wow.
ahhyes~
its pee.
3 dumb dogs pee-s.
i actually think it was meimei,
but then again candy was nt too bad either
at least baby is better, she shits nt pee
bt wadever. dogs shit AND pee.
the first time, was when the combination of pee gathered at the walk-way
i totally didnt expect THEM to pee at such a obvious area.
you know; humans walk, we pee near the cage or wadever.
bt nooooo
they pee-ed at the walk-way
how so thought-ful of them
and so a obviously stupid enough ignorant person like, me
was walking at the "walk-way"
and came landing on the pee!
yupp
they are sleepling quite peacefully, so devillish yet adorable yeah?
ahhh~ its 1.30am nw and im watching this anime "kekeishi"
jus finished bathing and will be going to slp soon

nites peeps^^

externity

2007-11-27T00:54:00.000-08:00

kim jeong/john hoon has released his album
call " externity" people!
excited?
yaaaaaahhhhh
i am, nt sure abt u
i want leh
it was release in jap
bt dunno coming to singapore anot.
eeeeeee!
:3

andandand i bought a need-to-cut-and-sew-pig
yeah.
its like testing my patience
i only finished the cutting part and a little bit of sewing
tats all
i hope i finished it ya noe
hopefully...
help me pray eh?
hahaha
ok its getting stupid lah
i'll show you guys the finish product on my blog
i gonna start on it now
ganbatte! fight-o!

fakers.

2007-11-15T02:00:00.000-08:00

ok.

tsk.

i realised tat i really dun like ppl who act tat they 'like' tat person.

when the truth is tat they dun care a shit for them.

yeah.

it is so fake can?

its like u dun like the person then dun like loh

no need to 'act' civilised towards them
it is seriously making me quite disgusted.

anyhoo

due to me cannot control my cravings for choco-products

my voice is, tats right, g-o-n-e.

i can only managed to make some futile whimpering,

which sounds like some beast roaring

HAHAHA

im so enjoying myself.

really its very funny can(if u can imagine. me doing tat. lol. tat is)

bt the bad side is tat i jus you know got s-i-c-k.

yes. me. sick.

fever actually, bt can u believe it?

well i can. (so hilarious)

eat too much chocolates-biscuits.

bt im ok alr.

with jus a few hours of sleep and the effective 'panadol'

im cured.

so my advise to u guys who eat too much chocolates without drinking enough water

(sadly just like me)

eat panadol.

its works laah

p.s: jeong hoon is really cute can?! he gt alot of expressions on his face. aahaaahhhh~

im happy!

2007-11-07T09:02:00.000-08:00

IM HAPPY!!
EMO-NESS gone.
yeah!
no credit to anyone but papa.
anyw
happy deepavali eveyone:D
i saw alot of indians on the train on my way home to sembawang(hah! surprise?)
yaaah..
dun wan/like to be racist here, but seriously loh.
got alot ok
and sit beside me somemore
then one left, other indian took his seat. i was like.
hallelujah.
yeah.
its damn not nice can?
trying to change laah

heheheh:D

a backward butterfly that someday will head towards the light.

2007-11-03T08:09:00.000-07:00

im losing it.
i wish they could all disappear.
however much i want to believe,
theres just no more hope.
its just too bad, then.

2007-10-30T08:47:00.000-07:00

ok. im damn troubled recently by alot of things
so im blogging this to actually apologise to the people who came across me as the emo wan.
IM SUPER DUPER SORRY!!D:
though to tell ya the truth, im still trying to get over my emo-ness
ahhhh!

D:
p.s: do talk to me if you'r not upset by me or smth.

2310- caregroup

2007-10-25T17:00:00.000-07:00

last day.ahha. wheeeeee~
ya know i i just wanna blog this really cool post
cos on wed-cg, my folks gave me affirmations.
then is like xue said i was tat kinda "cute" secondary school girl leh.
then after tat she took it back. (blah. u cant)
whahh!
then cg was really fun lah, cos of the restructuring to tat np will be able to grow better
np1 become a gruop only consisting of girls laar.
then we (xue, fel and me) become abit "ku-ku"
and starting jump during worship/praise.(i dunno which is whichD:)

off to doom soon, work i mean.

random

2007-10-25T08:39:00.000-07:00

im damn tired.
god's grace pulled me through loh.
one more day, left.
i wasnt even like, nervous or smth considering theres like damn many important guests/v.i.p. and its my first time working leh.
give me a clap/pat/hug. can?
hohohoho
tsk. and the bad news is. im not going for service on sat lah. gonna attend some random wedding cum ceremony at some house. guess wad? its a buffet ok, for a wedding. ya. random right? no beautiful bride and handsome groom. booo~
i mean got lah(if not what is the wedding for) bt they are not as beautiful and as handsome in the sense tat they like nvr really gonna wear long gown or tux suit (which i always look forward to the most can?)the smoke and flower petals drifting pass them (or as the matter-of-fact) on them and they walk in the aisle. ya
its a miracle they dun fall flat on their faces, ya noe considering all the smoke smacking on their faces. hah.

tats all.
bed time:D

singapore tourism

2007-10-24T14:51:00.000-07:00

ok. im gonna work for the "Singapore's tourism" event at plaza sing.
for 2 days only. so dun get your hopes up thinking im gonna start working or wadever kae?
haha. im still lazy.

( 25-26 oct 2007)

10am-9pm.

atrium @ orchard

come to plaza sing eh.

if u got nth else to do.

任意门

2007-10-20T11:46:00.000-07:00

im a tough weed!

tats all.

on always comes with off;

2007-10-19T00:13:00.000-07:00

hyeh yo peeps!
my blog's gonna drop dead soon, so was planning to actually let it die.
but wadever loh
i have jus revived it.

first!
my papa, on the earth de, says im going skinnier, whaaa
good news right?
very funny loh, i have been like eating lah
bt im getting skinny.
HAHS.
wadajoke can?
so eating gets me skinny eh?
whaaaaahhhss

second!
i have been watching lotsa j-dramas
recently gt caught up with hana yori dango, and hana yori dango 2
cool show lah~
talks abt....i forget alr, watch it yourselves
if u like it, then YOSH!
if u dont, ahhh~ too bad then.
ohohoh
if i start talking to u in broken jap, haha now u know why

and lastly!
i think i gonna stop bloging alr
hehe

tats all:D
jae!